Tuesday, January 16, 2007

A song can bring back a moment in enormous heartbeats.

The words hit my soul and linger until they are in me

Feeling, missing, loving, frienship, and longing...


Yes, I'm one of the lucky ones. I can go back to a moment and remember. Do I idealize some moments..probably. Serious thoughts let's me know that I what I feel is real, has been real...and feeling is amazing.

I have no idea where I'm going with this. My love is overflowing right now. My heart is so full of something that it's pushing my tears up to the brink. They are being held in by the moving of my fingers, I suppose.

They're holding onto the switch. If they stop I'm going to be in a puddle. Hmmm..Am I ready for the water? Not sure.

I choose to live.
I choose to feel.
I choose to love.
I choose to hurt.
I choose to remember.
I choose to miss.
I choose to type.
I choose to hold on to my tears.
They're mine.
I choose to cry.
They're ready to flow.

I'm fucking losing it...lol...what the fuck else is new.

I'm done.
Love you guys...
Oh and these drugs they have me on are really wild my friends...or strangers...or lurkers who never ever ever comment.
XOXO
C

8 comments:

Cat said...

Hmmm what drugs you got there? cuz I so think I need to go get me something. I have such up and down days.

Hope all is good with you! ((HUGS))

Take care friend!

ThoughtsGalore said...

Only your local variety anti-D along with another anti-D...and something to make me not to nuts from all the ups..lol.

LOL...
Yep...fucked up baby.
xoxo
C

The Kept Woman said...

Dammit.

Your brand of happy Pac-Man pills are better than mine...I need something better so that I can feel like I'm not in Wisconsin. Like I can live in a haze and pretend that I'm somewhere warm...in my flip-flops...

ThoughtsGalore said...

Oh and yes...I wore flip flops yesterday and today...:)

Wethyb said...

Wow, you sound like me. I like your "I choose" thing. Makes me wanna blubber.

Jewl said...

Ummmm, WHAT IS THIS ABOUT? LOL Damn woman, go write something I can understand!! :)

Dottie said...

Wow, what a combo that must be! I do know those moments when you are transported back to one of "those moments".

Cry, laugh...do whatever makes you feel good!

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