Read at your own risk. I just need a vent!
I'm feeling like a failure these days. Ok, not a total failure, but like I just can't get it going these days.
It's easy to say put ourselves as a priority. How? Sometimes when I have an extra half hour I'd like to just stay quiet or enjoy quiet, rather than go out for coffee with a friend. Do you feel like that?
I had a great idea of making slip covers. How come I can't do it? Fabric is great. Beautiful, actually. I just can't get them to look right. So after hours and days of sewing I feel like I accomplished ZILCH.
Then I'm stuck with the feeling of...Wow...am I just capable of slip cover making. What else? I'm being really being self-indulgent right now, I know. It's not PMS. Hmmm. I'm raising my kids. I'm doing well at that, but I'm just thinking about me right now. Me. I soooo don't know who I am right now. My mistakes haunt me sometimes. I try to let them go, but why did it take me until 30 to get the wisdom and insight soooo needed in my twenties? Another major source of reflection for me. Ahhhh well...screw it.
One thing is...It's just that I miss that friend of mine. I love you friend. I wish you were here. I need your voice.
Ok I'm done. Tears are wiped away. I'm done. LOL. Whew.
We're off to the beach. Let's see if I can get the sunscream all over the kids this time, without leaving a strip of skin bare. LOL. Yep...been there done that and it left one with a nice little red stripe. Bad Mommy!