Monday, November 20, 2006


I hate going to the see the doctor.

I know I need to go, but it just sucks.

Some of you hate the word sucks..I know...but it does.

My brain is all over the place these days. I'm not sure what to make of it.

Why is it so hard for me to use the phone these days. I can't explain it.

Picking it up is soooooooo hard. I know it will pass, but when.

I remember when my blog was my space. I didn't have to worry about what I typed.

Now I do. It's not just for my eyes..or anonymous eyes.

It's a place for people who I know to go to read up on my innermost thoughts. Crazy.

I know....

Anyway...I'm off to rest the cells. I'm off today. I know I am. I feel it.

K is just really sick. She's at school, but her kidney is just not working like it should. I don't have to be alone, but I'm afraid to pick up the damn phone. I know I'm not allergic to people, but it feels as if I am. I am so stressed about K that I don't what else to do. to make an appointment for me. K is going in a few days for scans.

And so the fun begins.....



Cat said...

I so know what you mean. I think I feel that way too. The phone is hard to use, getting out of the house is hard for me.
((HUGS)) you are not alone girl. We are here for you.
Hope all gets right for you.

Dottie said...

HUGS, you sound like you need them right now. I'll say a prayer for K that all will be ok, bless her heart!

I hear you on the blog, once mine became fodder for those that shouldn't be reading it, it lost its appeal.

Take care and I hope you find your way out of the rut soon!