Bringing It Out and Feeling It Again...

Feeling it come alive in me, again. Bringing it out.

But, I'm Aive

But, I'm Alive

I've been absent from my precious writing for a year and I will say it's because I was depressed. It hasn't just gone away for good from my life. It's gone for now and I've got my shit together. Get it, my GYST! It means, Get Your Shit Together! Thank you, Doctor A!

My thoughts are all over the place today. I started to write and write about what was going on around my world. I realized it was a bunch of bullshit! The real shit is that I made a great Facebook post to my Dad and posted it. Two minutes later I got a call from my parents yelling at me. Let's say yelling and screaming about how rude I was to put a Father's Day message on FB and not call. They're 3 hours behind me and it was 6:45 AM for them. Crushed. My heart, head, and soul are crushed, still to this minute. He hadn't even read it. I thanked him for choosing me. He adopted me when I was 7 years old. Life goes on, right. And to think I kept the last name. Fuck. Another story, for another post.

I want to go where I can be free again. Thinking of everything I have given will get me there. So much time wasted. My time is precious and to be spent getting the good stuff. These tears will roll down my face for as long as they need to, to escape this hell. But, I'm Alive! I choose me! I choose those that matter in my world.

Getting back in the groove, one post at a time.

TTFN

XOXO

C

Over A Year!!!!!!
Holy never again and it's time to write again and now.

Let's just start with a quote.

People think a soul mate is your perfect fit, and that's what everyone wants. But a true soul mate is a mirror, the person who shows you everything that is holding you back, the person who brings you to your own attention so you can change your life. A true soul mate is probably the most important person you'll ever meet, because they tear down your walls and smack you awake. But to live with a soul mate forever? Nah. Too painful. Soul mates, they come into your life just to reveal another layer of yourself to you, and then leave. A soul mates purpose is to shake you up, tear apart your ego a little bit, show you your obstacles and addictions, break your heart open so new light can get in, make you so desperate and out of control that you have to transform your life, then introduce you to your spiritual master

Elizabeth Gilbert                                           

Spirit and Flying The Freak Flag

I can't believe it's been so long since I've posted to my precious blog. I love this place. The years spent here sharing, opening up, and being me have been one of the greatest outlets I've had for Me.

When you lose your Me or your you need to find your freak flag, again, then find what lights you up and let's you fly away with that flag!  My thing is my blog.

Find what makes you happy, brings your spirit to the surface, and let it fly high!

TTFN

Dire Straits - Romeo And Juliet (Live In London - 1996)

I'd to the stars with you anytime..

Scary Box to Brave Box!

Stepping out of the Scary Box and into the Brave Box takes courage on my part every single day!

I've taken it on and do it with purpose.  Passion is a purpose. Determination is my purpose.

I mention what I'm doing and this opportunity of a lifetime to everyone I know, because that is my passion with my business. I have been given so much with this opportunity and I want to share it with everyone!

Scary Box to Brave Box!

I Believe Pink Miracles

Passion is something that I have for what I'm growing every single day. I'm just going to put it out there and let it be known how my Mary Kay business has changed my life.
I always laughed when I thought about being a Mary Kay Lady! Now, I relish in the wonderment that has become of my world.

My income is 13 thousand more, since August, that it has been in years and years. I'm telling you this because WHO KNEW I could accomplish such a thing as a stay at home mom and wife. By growing my team, I'm now earning small commissions. The greatest part of it all .... the women I meet. It's incredible. I'm still learning this business and I will be all every single day.

I do know this for sure, though. Surrounding myself with great amazing women is only making me a better business woman, wife, and mom. It's an amazing feeling. So, when I get on my Facebook or Blog and ask if you want to join, it's because my life has been changed forever.

I believe that my hard work has led to some amazing MIRACLES.

Elisabeth's Lullabye

Dedicated to my sweet Elisabeth. You love being our little Surfer Girl and love being rocked to this song.

Here I Am....

My name is Christie and Here I Am...

I LOVE Sparkles and Pink.
You'll always find me talking about my passion and sharing it with other people.
I always seem to be a little cold and the winter on the East coast is too much!
I feel like I'm a Super Woman, but I'm a mere mortal.
I function on very sleep on a nightly basis, because I have goals that are pushing me forward!
A Pink Cadillac is in my future in the next 6 months.
........Yes, I live in my pink bubble and I love it!

They'll Be Days Like This....

After the long day it was nice that the men could feed themselves with the crockpot. They chose a gourmet side of tater tots, but it's the end result, right? They did it. It was good. Homework done. I'm worked my business and have two new Mary Kay Sales Representatives for my team! It's been a good team!

Off to bed!
xoxoxo

Coffee, Crock Pot, Business Buiding, and Getting Ready Early!!!!!!

I make a killer yummy cup of coffee. My morning has begun with questions of what's for dinner tonight and I have a Crock-Pot for that tonight. I'm building my business one face and person at time, so I'm Face Ready, and it's only 7 AM!

Let me tick these off one at a time for you.

1. I have homemade Starbucks' coffee every single day and save a bundle, but wake up to a morning of yummy Java!
2. My weeknights can be amazingly busy, like all of you. On certain nights we have tutoring and swimming for the kids. On those nights I'm out at 4 and need to have dinner going for the family at home. That's when the fabulous Crock-Pot comes in handy for the busy parent! Get one if you don't have one.Tonight is a chicken night and it will make it easy to pull it together for tonight.
3. Selling Skin Care and Cosmetics mean that I need to pull myself together in the mornings. This is a true wonder, though, because it does two things. It makes me customer ready, if I need to run out for an order or interview and on the other hand, it boosts my activity in everything around the house and in my business. I'm ready to go!
4. Finally, I get it moving every single day EARLY! I am part of the 5 o'clock club. That's 5AM in the morning. Get up early and get something done early before anyone is asking you a ton of questions. Maybe you can get an hour of work done, uninterrupted. Have a cup of coffee or tea. Watch the news or read the paper. Maybe you can meditate. Do something and work for yourself!

Now that was my morning. It's 8:38 and I'm ready to post my first post of 2015! Love it!
Until Next Time, Friends!
Love...
XOXO.

Coffee Anyone!

Just a little coffee to get through the afternoon!

Be Kind To One Another

This is a beautiful, beautiful song and video for video for all women. Take a minute and watch this powerful message, that will leave you smiling with chills. Let's love ourselves and be kind to one another.

Pink Is My Signature Color...But You All Knew That, Already

Oh Audrey I feel you! Pink, as my signature color, has made all the difference in my world! Now, if I could pull of a hat like you could....WOW! 

Our House...Feeling The Vinyl Tonight.

Summer Summer Summer Summer.........

Our house, is a very very very fine house

With "Three" dogs in the house....

It's Time For Romeo and Juliet

I'll share the stars with you ... anytime. 

Back To So Cal!

Flying to my baby sister's wedding and full of a ball of energy in me! It's excitement, nerves, pure joy of going home, and more nervous energy from the kids. It's what they do and it's what they give in the endless who is sitting with whom. It's traveling with Christie and her ducklings. They quack and quack and quack, then the daddy falls sound asleep with his mouth open for delightful pictures to bribe with, at a later time.

Off to Cali and all my memories flood back. Only my girlfriends and guy friends really get growing up in the 80's in so cal, like we did and the free fun the beach gave us. Driving down PCH with guys wrapped in towels and taking off their wetsuits was quite the sight of cute boys for girls in cars!

Raised by hippies, I listened to so much vinyl every single day. I was lucky to have my dad. The song for this post is Surfin USA. Lyrics in the speak our life during our time. We had the Hirachi Sandals. We did Huntington, Sunset, watched our guys, and wanna be guys,near San Onofre, and so much more from that song. With our change in our bags for the 25 Bus, more change for a diet coke, and if we were lucky we could share NACHOS from that stand near the pier! Also, we brought the necessities like a low chair, baby oil, towel, small boom box with batteries if we had one. Yeah, lol, no one ever had batteries. We spent money on hair spray!
So much more. Aaaahhhhhh....the ducklings are quiet, because they can use pads and pods now.

On to the family....

Freak Out Moment

It's frightening that my daughter believes it's cool and beautiful seeing my bones in my chest, from losing weight. She marvels at them. As she suffers from an eating eating disorder, it makes my stomach turn every time notices the, BONES.  The BONES are becoming, to her her, and many girls she knows, as important as the thigh gap.

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My Mom ....when she was good she was goooood.
My Mom.....when she was manic or depressed she was scary, full of fury, and fire.

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Life comes full circle and I can see myself in places and faces of strangers and loves. I choose the numbness so the fury or fire stays closed off inside its hiding place. Does it even exist? I don't know. I'd hate to find out, though.


xoxo
C

Small Doses

My way to get back into writing, is to do it in small doses. It sounds good to me. There has to be some way to be productive with my thoughts down on paper or the screen and putting myself out there again, through my words.  Catharsis is a wonderful thing.

I'm working from the iPad set up and wireless keyboard. It is working!!!! I will take the small wins and go with them. My PC works, but a desk and office isn't happening right now. Yes, I have a huge home, however my space has yet to materialize. It will happen!  It is a want and a NEED.

Parenting note on raising teens. It's not easy with all of them. It's universal, I've been told by so many people. If they were all easy to raise, then I would seriously question that reality.  It has to get better, right?  I will say I do see glimmers of ease at times. Then before I can enjoy and soak it up that glimmer is put out that a wave on gorgeous mermaid sandcastle. It's gone in an instant. There is a mantra that I use that includes, " I will not engage in that with you." Finally, I had to explain the meaning of engage to one of the children. Classic parenting, if I say so myself.

I have wanted to run away and have a hotel getaway, but then I'd have my phone blow up the entire time. Being the family's  buffer is a heavy burden, I put on myself, and now it's time to remove the bumper guards. Requiring respect is not an option, but giving it to me is quite a difficult task for the ones around me. They will have to learn to pick up the pace on that life lesson. Life throws us curves. I'm just ready for the curves to to lead to a more straight road, at least for a little while.

What do I need? Now, that's the question I need to find the answer to for me. Therapy is a wonderful thing. What do I need for me? Hmmmm.....Now that's the question.

XOXOXO
Christie

The Sigh of Relief This Country Needed....

Did you sleep better last night? I'm sure the people all over Bosten and Watertown, MA did last night.

One Boston Marathon, alleged, bomber dead and the other in custody. Lives wasted.

Now, to focus on the lives that need to be rebuilt. Boston has some of the most elite hospitals in the world. They will need to take care of the maimed needing to learn to walk again and emotional care will be endless for so many people.

I'm sending all my prayers to the families who have lost loved ones, those who need to rehabilitate, and any who need financially to be helped to do all of this with medical and more costly prosthetics. It would be miraculous if we could marry up our systems and get Walter Reid, Bethesda, and all the injured to get help with their injuries. We have the finest doctors in the world and unfortunately, there is now perfection in the field of prosthetics, due to endless war.

Let's Do Something...
Xoxo
Until I'm back again...
Christie