I'M SORRY SEAHAWKS...! I'M CURSED!

It's official. Never root for the team that I do! I am always wrong!

I'm sorry Seahawks. I'm bad luck. I sooooo wanted you to win, I should have worn black and yellow today. Then for sure Seattle may have had a chance.

Was it me, or did the Rolling Stones just suck? They sooooo did.

I got out before the game for Starbucks. You'd think I told the hubby I was leaving him for a week with the kids. Ok, well I did leave at 4:15 and I guess it was the Pre-game....then the game. LOL...deal with it, is all I can say. That's the beauty of TIVO.

As you can tell, I've got nothing tonight. I will have more tomorrow, I'm sure. I'm getting ready to be married, but single again next week. Soooo...let the fun begin.

Thanks for indulging my sweeties.
Love you all...
XOXO
C

My Favorite....

i carry your heart with me

i carry your heart with me (i carry it in my heart)

i am never without it (anywhere i go you go,

my dear; and whatever is done by

only me is your doing, my darling)

i fear no fate (for you are my fate, my sweet)

i want no world (for beautiful you are my world, my true)

and it's you, whatever a moon has always meant

and whatever a sun will always sing, is you.

here is the deepest secret nobody knows

(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud

and the sky of the sky of a tree called life; which grows

higher and higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide)

and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart

i carry your heart (i carry it in my heart)

ee cummings

MY BRAIN JUST THINKS TOO MUCH!

Last night was birthday dinner night for my 7 year old baby. I was lucky that I could talk her out of Chuck E Cheese's and we went to chilies. After that it was costs time.(Do you guys remember when costs was Price Club. Maybe that was just for us call Kids.) Regardless..I'm a costs junky. There just weren't any good books there last night. They used to carry SO many more. Not so helpful for the Book Whore in me. Oh and let's see...Did I mention all 3 kids were running the aisles? Ok..Just wanted to make sure you could understand the craziness that followed me.

anyhow...Bedtime was as soon as we arrived home. The food was put away...And yes I was able to breathe for a few minutes. I was tired. I wanted to sleep. After a little jack and diet coke and climbing into bed, it hit me that I was wired. Yap...Wired. Woo.

I'm working on a Cook Book type of creation. It will be something a little different...But have some fabulous recipes, stories...And see where it leads me. That being said...I have no control when the ideas hit me. So, last night..Exhausted...Needing sleep...Emotionally drained...My brain started firing. Ideas were flowing. I was up. Cookbook ideas...And life just flowed from the fingers to the screen. Ok...Maybe a manic moment, but I'd prefer to label it a "Creative Epiphany." LOL..Yeah..Wishful thinking.

Do you want a perfect Super Bowl Dip...I have it. Are you craving "The Perfect Chocolate Chip Cookie?" I've got you covered. Hammy..Maybe I'll start posting a recipe a day? Whammy. Who knows. I am a great cook. :) Problems with figuring out what to cook and you only have chicken and Vegas? I'm the girl for you.

Coffee Coffee...do your job. Give me strength to get through the day with all the kids home. I'm married, but single for the next few weeks. Cat and Jewl..you so know what I'm talking about. I need some serious TLC.

Love you guys. Thanks for indulging me. You always do...and I cherish you guys.
XOXO
Christie

"Christie I Know Why You're Soooooo Fucked Up..!"

Everyone in my family will, freely, admit we're a little nuts. Some more than others...but all are to some degree..nuts.

Now, that being said, most of my illuminating conversations with my mom happen before 7AM (my time...5AM Long Beach time.) She tries her hardest to remember the no calling before 7AM rule. That took years to be fully enforced. If it's a weekend I usually get a reprieve until 8.

Let me give you a little back brief (my term for in a nutshell.) My oldest has had so many kidney surgeries and continually has issues because of infections. My middle princess and I both just got over pnemonia...The boy is just the boy...and now I'm faced another move and self reflection. Those growths on my ovary were not cysts they were solid. All of that hit right after the new year. Soooooo...yes a handful.

Recovering and on day 3 of the Zithromax, my mom called and informed me why my life is so FUCKED up....Yes...."Fucked UP." She is a younger mom and i'm the oldest. She's nuts.

Me..Wow 6:59...you're getting better.

Mom...Christie, I know why you're life is so fucked up.

Me...Well...hi mom. I didn't realize I was so fucked up. Thank God I have coffee dripping.

Mom..Well that's the reason your fucking up your life.

Me...Hmmmm....coffee?

Mom...When you got married you promised God that you'd raise your children Catholic and you're not. That church your going to isn't Catholic and it's the only way to heaven. Now that the Pope might be getting rid of Purgatory...you need to get those kids fixed. (I do go to a Catholic Church..but there are no cadles and my mom doesn't get it...)

Me...Really...

Mom...You promised and you need to fix this.

Me...Well is that why you're so fucked up...because you Converted to being Jewish (and back again) and married Dad...and now have two catholic daughters and one jewish daughter (one sister decided she wants to be jewish.) .....Hmmmm???

Mom...Ok I'm saying a Novena...my prayers are always answered. You need to go to confession.

Me....What are you on?

Mom...Promise me in 30 days you'll have them in all the right classes.

Me...Hellllooooo...the kids are fine...happy...healthy...and all things being said, they'll go to heaven, but I'm not God.

Mom...I'm right just admit it? I'm always right...

Me...Anything else? You have 2 minutes....

Mom...Now that everyone is out of the house did you know that Daddy can walk around in a towel or naked any time he wants tooo?????

And that my friends is my life. My mom is a kook...I'm fucked up (but know i'm not).....and the thought of my parents walking around naked just because....YUCK!!!!! All of that was before my coffee......

And how was your day?
xoxo
C

If You Wanna Be My Lover...

Lizzie Tagged me with this. Here's my list of things I'd love in partner.
The tagged victim (me), lists 8 different points of their perfect lover/partner!!

1. Passionate
2. Sexy Intelligent
3. Fantastic Hands
4. Kissable Yummy Lips
5. Funny..Able to just crack up!
6. Sweet and Thoughtful
7. Someone who wants to be with me and wake up every morning...(to great sex!)
8. Creative and Smart. I love someone who's great with words! Loves creating.
Did I mention smart...:) Able to talk about all kinds of different issues.

I tag anyone and everyone! Come on...let us get a glimpse of your ideal lover..:)

Where does time go?

So I'm in Manic Christie mode decluttering things around here. I came across some older Cd's with pictures on them. I pop them in the computer and I'm brought back to my babies. Time just flies tooooo fast. I'm sorry. It just does.

My baby girl is going to be 7 in a few days! My boy is 5! He is going to be in Kindergarten next year. Ugh! My 11 year old..well, you all know how she's making me feel old.

I found myself contemplating my "career." I know I know...what career. I used to be productive and successful before the babies. Then all of a sudden, I became a good mommy. Go figure.

Lots of changes. Moving...kids getting older...self evaluation...constant scale monitoring lol...what's a girl to do. Life just happens.

Finally...I was in bed last night thinking. Do you all have that one moment in your life when things could have changed. That one decision you made. That one moment when if you said yes or no...life would have been completely different? Hmmm...I think too much, huh? It's all the sorting I'm doing. It happens every single time. I sort stuff..and sort my life.
Ok...rambling...I know.
xoxo
C

I hate this!

This is driving me crazy! I can't seem to figure my stupid blog out.

Oh...and my vent isn't nearly done..lol!

HOLY CRAP! A Near Miss!

I thought I lost my entire blog! I was pretending that I knew something about code and was trying to put up my old blog. Ummmmm I know nothing! LOL. Sooooooo, I grabbed the first template I could get my hands on and just clicked save.


Yes, I have nothing else exciting going on in my world...so I must obsess about this, I guess.

I'm back to spicing up this blog of mine. I hope you're doing well, friends. I...am thanking God right at this moment, that this is all still here for me. I would have cried...yes real tears. LOL.

XOXO
C

Mmmmmm My Coffee Is Yummy Today...

So...here's what I'm thinking. Couldn't I just copy the old template and put it in place of this one? I can find the template in the archives. Hmmmm...any ideas? I know we're all creative...one of you smarties has to have the answer. Let me know.

Or....maybe, how about this...I could use one of the simpler generic designs and put a cute header up on the top of the blog. Hmmm. Someone...Please HELP!

Here's something else I've discovered this week. All these dots and crappy blog punctuation, does not help Christie when she's trying to piece together her writing.

Oh, and Sammy Boy just told me that his Lego's are "Fricking Around" and it's "Pissing Him Off." Lovely!!!!!! My mouth isn't that bad. I swear. Plus, if I'm going to say fuck..I say fuck (not around the boy.)I don't use the wording "frick!"

Well, it's a beautiful day here. It's about 38, but the sky is blue and it's gorgeous. I can't wait until Spring. The pansies are still out and living..the weather is so mild this winter. I love this. I don't do well in the super cold..so this is a blessing for me.

I think that's it for now. Today is a better day. I hope you're all doing well. Thanks for all your kind words yesterday. I soooo needed them.
XOXO
C

Need A Heart For Your Sleeve...I have enough for everyone!

Yes, I'm the emotional feeling one in the group. I don't get neurotic about it, but yes..I wear my heart on my sleeve and we all know that by now.

Isn't it funny what one picture can do? For me It brings me right back to the moment. I remember it all...feelings...what we were talking about...what happened after. It's what I do.

Ok...that being said, I need to knock this shit off. It does me know good. I don't need a stupid picture to make me relive the last 5-10 years. Ugh. It's heartwrenching. I know I should be happy, content...and I am happy. The other part of it is just that when I love. Whether it's a romantic love...or a friendship. I give myself. It's not an overwhelming thing...it's just that I care. So after loving and giving, when it's over...I do miss.

Aaahhhh...If you're thinking to yourself...wtf?...sorry.

This is the only place I can express this. When Dr. Calm here's me he makes me come up with the reasons why...and it's just quite a bit of work. So here I can dump and it's ok. This is my space.

Just a few thoughts now...if I let it out then maybe I'll feel better....

Turmoil is abound right now. Inner turmoil, I guess. It's funny..I can fake happy like I can fake an O. Let's just say...that's pretty fucking good.

I hate an ugly mean drunk. I can't deal with it. I grew up with it and now I seem to have it in my world and it breaks my heart. When it's around me I feel alone and isolated from the world. It changes a person. The next day...I fake happy. :( (and no it's not me.) I know because of alcoholism my life has forever been changed. It's been part of my formative years and adult years. I don't blame anything on it...I make my life what it is...but it still has affected my world.

So he's not deploying to Iraq, but we're moving. Maybe this is why I hold on to my dear friends and you guys are wonderful. I know when I leave I'll still have this and you...(if this post doesn't scare you away.) It's tough...and it sucks. I have no idea where we have to move, but I do know that this house will be up for sale this summer. Ugh. I hate moving.

I'm not really as tortured as I might seem..lol. I'm just a feeler. I feel what's going on in my life. I guess it's better than living in denial...

Oh and let me just say...It's almost February! Don't tell me we need to start getting bathing suit ready again?! UGh...lol. To be a woman. :)

Ok...my venting is over. No feeling sorry aloud. I just needed to get it out. I kind of feel better already...
XOOX
C

Do you...

This just spoke to me. Since this is my blog and for my feelings...let me just say I'm having a moment.

Yes..I know...I need a new look!

I miss my old pink look! I need some sort of an update. I was going to try to do something simple myself...but Hmmm...I don't know if my talents extend that far. :)

Anyhoo...I'll have to figure it out, because trust me...I'm not one of those people who leave their Christmas Tree and Menorah (Jewish Dad..Catholic Mom..lol)up through January! Sooooo...any ideas my sweet friends? My sweet designer Heather, who's done mine previously is dealing with some serious health problems with her daughter, so I just need to figure out something different.

Oh and let's see...The house is no longer sick! Whooohooo...!

I do have a topic I want to dive into later after coffee...It's a teaser, but I really want to talk about types of blogs and the "jerk" who left me a lovely comment about how he/she thinks the Mommy Blogs suck and we're all self centered women, who don't have a life. Yeah I know...Fuck Her/Him. This is not a Mommy Blog...it's my blog. It's my world. Ugh...I need coffee. I will dive into that later. Oh and let me say...don't be such a wuss and use anonymous when you leave a comment. I can delete you....and who the fuck cares what you think? LOL..Ok I'm done.

Sorry Lizzie...all those fucks were necessary..:)
xoxo
C

They Say It's Your Birthday!!!!!!

I am a mom of an 11 year old girl. How did it happen so fast...?!!!! Let me just say that 11 isn't what it used to be. LOL..not that any of you are surprised.

So, last night was slumber party night. Oh yes, I just said yes to her. She must have gotten to me at a weak moment. LOL..Holy Crap, what was I thinking? It was a group of 9 of them. Ugh huh...lol...9, plus mine...plus my 6 year old! Nice.

The first moment of me almost dying was when they were talking about how much they looooooooove Jesse McCartney. It was "Raise your hand if you like him. Raise your hand if you love him....Ok Raise your hand if you want to do it with him!"!!!! Ummmmm Excuse Me! Do It?! Not my baby and her friends. When did that happen?

After a while, one of the girls ran in and asked what Toxic Water was. LOL. Hmmmmm "Toxic Water?" I got up and went in....oh TONIC WATER..lol. Well, they were all freaking out with gagging faces. Soo....they got their grooves on by drinking Toxic Water and then sneaking some later in the night just to mix it in with other things to freak the other girls out.

Anyhoo...let's talk about sleep. I knew they wouldn't sleep...no biggie. Except, one of the girls at to leave at 6am! The mom told me when she dropped her off and added "I hope that won't be any trouble." YEAH RIGHT. So I had to be up at 5:45 waking her up and getting her out the door. I ended up asleep around 3:45. The kids and hubby were sound asleep in my room. To make a long story short....The girl stayed up until 6AM!!!! Holy Crap...they broke any record I might have had at their age. LOL....Girls!

It was fun and I made it to this morning still alive. Tired, but still alive.

So I wish you all such slumber parties with your little precious ones in the years to come. If you're that brave...or suffer a momentary lapse in judgement and say yes. :)
XOXO
C

These few things I know for sure today...(3am in bed typing)

1. Let's give the inventor of the Z-pak (zithromax) a Nobel Peace Prize..because with that I'd have no peace at this moment.

2. When was the last time you heard of the mommy and the daughter getting Pnemonia together. Then the daddy gets a little put out because you screw up his day at work, because you're really unable to drive or function. Hmmm...I'll let you ponder that one..

3. I sooooo miss not having my family close right now. I'm overwhelmed and sick...and no one here to help me at all. That makes me sad.

4. Finally...thankfully I have my handy blog...friends who don't mind if I complain a little (because apparently I can't anywhere else in my world.)

Love you...
Christie

TMI Tuesday...I just snagged Lizzie Girl's Quiz.

1. What are three mistakes someone could make on the first date with you that would automatically make you turn down a second date with them?
Stinky Breath..Phone Calls to the "other person" while out with me...oh and Right Wing Zealot! LOL...
2. On a scale of 1-10, how important are good manners to you? Hmmmm...Important..because if you go back to #1 I couldn't go out with a guy if he ate like a pig!
3. If your so stopped having sex with you, how long would you stay? NOt long...I personally enjoy having very good Os.
4. Have you ever dated an ex's best friend or relative? I can say that I haven't crossed that visible line. Ok got together with, but didn't date! Huge difference.
5. On average, how long do you think people wait before having sex? How long do you think they should? I don't think people wait as long as we used to. I was never a "LONG" waiter. LOL. Waiting period all depends on the chemistry factor. Hmmmm I remeber a time when no words were said and the kisses just moved straight to sex. Oh my...soooo good. Very memorable. TMI!
Bonus (as in "optional"): How long do you usually spend on a single session of making love? Trust me...not long enough.

All About Me....

It's been a long weekend. Thank God the emotions of football are over until next week. The stress of all those skaters falling in their triple jumps is over until the Olympics....and I my friends, am looking forward to the kiddies in school tomorrow. Hot Damn!

I'm taking myself and going to the Y, followed by a nice hot time in the Sauna. Then. It's off for a Mani and Pedi. Yes, I know...such a chick. However...let it be noted...I love being a chick. I told the hubby that life would be dull if I didn't have my quirks. So, I have a nice Diet Coke right now, my smut magazines next to me calling my name, the Golden Globes are being Tivo'd (not missing them..lol) and I'm finally having peace with the kids in bed.

Sooooooo I will type tomorrow in the morning, rather than the night...just because I finally can. Oh and I've started writing again, other than the blog. I'm just going with it and we'll see what happens.
Love,
Christie

What to do when my Chargers aren't in the playoffs...

Hmmmmmm let's see. I miss So Cal. I miss my Chargers. I miss the traffic...yes the traffic (ok..only sometimes.) I miss driving up the coast. Ok, the rant is over.

Now, here's the quandry. Am I being too much of a chick because I want to watch Ice Skating? The Patriots and Broncos are on, but hell isn't that why we have TIVO? Ok Ok...I do love football, but cheering for Broncos doesn't do it for me. I miss my Chargers. I love my underdog team. They soooo fucked up their season. They beat the damn Patriots!!!!

I guess I'll tivo my Ice Skating...not that I'm so into it, but it's the Olympic season and it's gets really catty.

Anyone reading anything good right now? I have had my fill of smut for my few weeks. I want something juicy and good. Give me ideas. The whore needs a book. LOL..just a book whore my sweeties.

XOXO
C

James...This Book Whore Wants To Believe You!

Edited 2:35 PM!!! Before you start reading, the parts of James Frey's MLP are about 18 pages. They're to do with the arrests and jail parts. I guess it wasn't "as bad" as he wrote. I'm really not as upset as I sound..lol. I guess I need to preface posts like this with a PMS warning! :) I do love that book..I soooo want to believe him.

Call me wuss. Tell me I have a bleeding heart. I wear my heart on my sleeve? Of course I do. It's me....always rooting for the underdog. I give the homeless guy on the corner $20 without thinking. I've been known to give the illegals money in the baby aisle at Vons with stress in their eyes over the cost of diapers. It's me. It's who I am. Guilty..

So now comes the "truth" that James Frey made up some of his book, Million Little Pieces. . Lizzie and I started our Book Club because of this book. Keep Holing On...the mantra of November and December. All I can say is WHAT THE FUCK!!!!!

Oprah doesn't think it's that big of a deal. He said there were only about 18 pages in question. I don't give a fuck. I bought it hook line and sinker. I cried with him, really wept with Leonard. I just don't know. I will say it and stick to it...Million Little Pieces is one of the best books I've read. It's in my top 10.

James James James, This Book Whore...doesn't like lies. Come on baby...no screwing was necessary. I don't know. I'm not a "critic." I'm a lover of books. You have this way of hooking me in with your writing.

Yes friends...my name is Christie. I'm a founding member of our Blogger's Anonymous group..and yes a Book Whore, as well. Who knew!

XOXO
Christie

Island Days...

Here's a little glimpse at some pics of Jamaica, the ocean from Grand Cayman..and let me say...Grand Cayman is gorgeous! I'll figure Flikr out. I've missed my blog. It needs some serious TLC.
Enjoy a little Island Music as you look. MD..I even took a picture of the slide from Margaritaville for you!
XOXO

WHAT I DID OVER CHRISTMAS VACATION...BY CHRISTIE L.

After all the presents were wrapped it was all about waiting for the smiles. Oh the smiles, the laughing...the "Mommy can you get the Barbie out RIGHT now." I pulled ever single Barbie out of those horrible cardboard cases. The twist ties weren't going to stop me. My fingers would recover. A manicure was only a phone call away.

So one after another, the toys were ripped open. My fingers were shredded. The husband, it seems, is only capable of battery insertion. Hmmmmm...oh and anything technical was the oldest's job. LOL. She's so good like that. Legos, Starwars Xbox, blocks, babies, Barbies, an Ipod....Santa was very good!

I'm sitting here thinking of Christmas and now New Years. I found a quote in the Benjamin Franklin book about Resolutions. It was a great quote from a 20 year old Franklin. Did he also invent the idea of a Resolution? I'm not sure...but he did come up with something great. Here it is. His "Plan For Future Conduct."
1. it is necessary for me to be extremely frugal for some time, till I have paid what I owe.
2. To endeavor to speak truth in every instance; to give nobody expectations that are not likely to be answered, but aim at sincerity in every word and action-the most amiable excellence in a rational beiing.
3. To apply myself industriously to whatever business I take in hand, and not divert my mind from my business by any foolish project of suddenly growing rich; for industry and patience are the surest means of plenty.
4. I resolve to speak ill of no man whatever.

How come I couldn't come up with something 1/50th as good! I hope you all are having a fabulous 2006 and your poor little fingers are recovering from all those little gifts!

Finally, one more thing...
I've missed you guys. I will write more later. I'm just tired and getting things back to normal. I need a vacation...:) LOL!