Bringing It Out and Feeling It Again...

Feeling it come alive in me, again. Bringing it out.

But, I'm Aive

But, I'm Alive

I've been absent from my precious writing for a year and I will say it's because I was depressed. It hasn't just gone away for good from my life. It's gone for now and I've got my shit together. Get it, my GYST! It means, Get Your Shit Together! Thank you, Doctor A!

My thoughts are all over the place today. I started to write and write about what was going on around my world. I realized it was a bunch of bullshit! The real shit is that I made a great Facebook post to my Dad and posted it. Two minutes later I got a call from my parents yelling at me. Let's say yelling and screaming about how rude I was to put a Father's Day message on FB and not call. They're 3 hours behind me and it was 6:45 AM for them. Crushed. My heart, head, and soul are crushed, still to this minute. He hadn't even read it. I thanked him for choosing me. He adopted me when I was 7 years old. Life goes on, right. And to think I kept the last name. Fuck. Another story, for another post.

I want to go where I can be free again. Thinking of everything I have given will get me there. So much time wasted. My time is precious and to be spent getting the good stuff. These tears will roll down my face for as long as they need to, to escape this hell. But, I'm Alive! I choose me! I choose those that matter in my world.

Getting back in the groove, one post at a time.

TTFN

XOXO

C

Over A Year!!!!!!
Holy never again and it's time to write again and now.

Let's just start with a quote.

People think a soul mate is your perfect fit, and that's what everyone wants. But a true soul mate is a mirror, the person who shows you everything that is holding you back, the person who brings you to your own attention so you can change your life. A true soul mate is probably the most important person you'll ever meet, because they tear down your walls and smack you awake. But to live with a soul mate forever? Nah. Too painful. Soul mates, they come into your life just to reveal another layer of yourself to you, and then leave. A soul mates purpose is to shake you up, tear apart your ego a little bit, show you your obstacles and addictions, break your heart open so new light can get in, make you so desperate and out of control that you have to transform your life, then introduce you to your spiritual master

Elizabeth Gilbert