Stir Crazy...

Well, the kids are going a little stir crazy. So is the husband. Mix the kids and the hubby crazy what does that equal...you've got it...one edgy woman. Ugh. Can't they just all get along. lol Isn't that the old phrase from our past. I guess the thing is I could use a little TLC. I give all the loving all the taking care of, all the kisses, all the multitasking, and I need a little snuggling and little TLC. Ok, that a nice Starbucks latte right about now to keep the eyes open. Happy New Year's friends. XOXO, C

When is too early to make the coffee!

It's 4:30 and I'm up! When is too early to make the coffee. Will I be able to sleep for another 2 hours? Am I up for good. Am I just feel a little fuzzy today? Should I just make the damn coffee...lol?! Ugh..lol! Ok I'll stick with the tea until 6:30, then I'll make the coffee. With problems like mine we should all be so lucky...I know I know...xoxo C

Happy Happy New Year...

Happy New Year!!!! Can We believe it's 2005 tomorrow. I wish everyone a safe and happy night tonight a wonderful New Year! I'll have more to say as the day goes on, but for now Cheers!

Oh yeah baby...oh yeah!

I slept! Thank God for Nyquil! I slept for pretty much the whole night. I'm feeling sooo much better.

When did I become such a Mommy. LOL. I was watching Good Morning America yesterday morning and the topic was New Year's Eve Glam! Let me share my journal entry with you. "I soooo see my life full of Holiday 101 Glam right now." That's not saying that I'm boring, but Holiday Glam...lolWoW. LOL. Hmmm.....

Yes, I know, I'm not in the Tsunami and I have a great life....just a fun thought for the day.
XOXO
C

Just a little sleep...

Ok....A little sleep is all I ask for tonight. I am hoping that the nyquil wil kick my ass into submission and I will be flat on my back in minutes. I am so tired that I need sleep! This cough thing is starting to really become soooooo not what I need at 2 in the morning. My 5 year old hear's me and she runs to get me a glass of water and then we're both up. Cute...but not what we both need. Soooooooo, Fingers are crossed. Colorado is nice, but I miss my house and routine. The 5th is a long way off. Wow, what was I thinking with a 2 week vacation! LOL. :) Ok, well Happy New Year everyone...and maybe with some sleep I'll be my perky self tomorrow!
xoxo
C

Merry Christmas!

What a wonderful day it's been. My kids have been amazing. The mommy has been up since 3:30AM with the damn cough going. It's not even a cough...it's the damn tickle thing. However, once the kids got up...I just forgot I was sleep deprived. Spiderboy was all over his Web Glove hand thingy. Ava loved her baby and mini pack and play. Kelsey loved her Sims and music stuff. Soooooooo all in all Santa did well.

I cooked a kick ass Prime Rib dinner. The ooohs and aaaaahs made my night. I have the cooking down. Martha watch out. LOL. Tom was a little grumpy, but he's mellowing out finally.

Night night....and Merry Christmas to all....
Christie

White Christmas.....Very very very white....

Well, for a California girl...This is very White! It's snowing as I type. It's gorgeous. Snow...lol. Way to f-ing cold! One needs a whole need wardrobe for snow and to be a good looking snowbunny.

XOXO
C

Baby it's REALLY cold outside!

I thought Nashville was cold, well Denver is freezing! We flew here this morning at 6AM. That's right, we got the kids out of bed at 3:45 and into the car by 4:14 AM. We were on our A game this morning. The kids are tucked into bed and I'm getting ready to sip some tea. Oh yeah..I did have a few Ouzo shots to take the edge off..lol. Merry Christmas friends...until next time.
XOXO...
C

Last minute Christmas stuff...

Who else has last minute stuff to do?!!!!!! I have last minute shopping, packing, and kids home from school as I get it all together! Woohoo for me. :) My hubby even suggested I go to get the dog toys at PetsMart (because we're boarding him while we're away on vacation.) He then thought it would be "fun" to bring Reeses along! LOL...yeah really fun.

So, can you guess if the dog is coming to the dog store to buy him toys? Yeah that's right the answer is ahhhh no. :)

I need all this done by 6, because i'm going to see Spanglish tonight! I need a good chickflick with my friend!

XOXO
C

The list...

Just passing on the fun of "The List"...

Three names you go by:

1. Mommy
2. Christie
3. Xty

Thee screen names you have:

1. ThoughtsGalore
   
2. Calliecuti (aol)
   
3. ChristieL70 (yahoo)
   
   

Three things you like about yourself:

1. Sense of humor
   
2. Loving
   
3. Great hair!
   
   

Three things you hate/dislike about yourself:

1. I hate my insecurities
2. My doubts
3. Always being 5 minutes late!
   

Three parts of your heritage:

1. Irish
2. Italian
3. Redneck north carolina from the biological father (totally don't mention it....lol)

Three everyday essentials:

1. Love and kisses from the hubby and kids.
2. Coffee and coffee
3. My vitamin Z...lol!

Three things you are wearing right now:

1. Velour Red soft V neck sweatshirt
2. Matching pants...totally comfy
3. That's it....and a cute smile! LOL

Three favorite Bands/Artists (at the moment)

1. Goo Goo Dolls (love them...everything)
   
2. Dinana Anaid (Love Her...check her out..you'll love her!)
3. Anna Nalick (New and awesome) Girly reflective mode
   

Three favorite songs at the present:

1. Baby it's cold outside. From Elf.
2. Breathe . Anna Nalick
3. Diana Anaid. Last Thing.
   

Three things I'd like to try in the next 12 months:

1. Doing a half marathon
2. Loving on my own terms
3. Hiking
   

Three things you want in a relationship (love is a giving):

1. Naked truth
   
2. Intimacy beyond bounds
3. Feel what I'm missing
   

Two truths and a lie:

1. I can fix almost anything in the house very handy.
2. I'm a total girly girl....high maintenace chick kind of woman.
3. My husband is soooooo handy...:)
   

Three physical things about the opposite sex that are appealing:

1. Face
2. Arms
3. Ass
   

Three things you can't do:

1. I suck at math
2. I can't reach the highest shelves in the cabinets
3. I can't be mean to people on purpose.
   

Three favorite hobbies:

1. Yoga
2. Writing
3. Reading
   

Three careers you're considering:

1. My business...get it fourishing-specialty gifts
2. Writer
3. Realtor
   

Three kids' names, either boy or girl:

1. Kelsey
2. Ava
3. Sam - my three little ones

Three things I want to do before I die:

1. Really live and love
2. Write a wonderful book
3. Watch my kids live amazing lives...
   How fun to write it all out!

XOXO C

Baby it's cold outside...

We've been watching Elf here this weekend. I love the "Baby it's cold outside" with Will and Zooey. Mmmm Love it! I love the song, but they're so sweet! It's the song on the brain!

And Baby....it's cold outside. :)

XOXO
C

Aaaaahhhhhhh....

Just Breath......

What a concept.....

XOXO....
C

Fa la la la la la la la la....

The Christmas cards are out! Pictures are in there! Whew! I feel good. My sweet youngest angel woke me up at 4am-ish so I just got out of bed and finished them up.

I think the Christmas spirit has entered my body! LOL.

Christie...Stay away from Target! lol...

XOXO...C

Sex and the PDA

Now that the hubby is back from IRAQ I have noticed a few things. He still bugs me with leaving the toilet seat up (something I had my 4 year old trained to put down, but now that's shot to hell.) He also does keep track of the sex on his PDA. So, ladies...we had this topic up once before. My huband can tell you time and place by looking at his PDA of our sex life..LOL! Is it the engineer brain...or just a control thing. YUCK!

Just thought I'd pass it on. He gave me his old one and I thought....what can I keep track of on it that would piss him off about....lol. Hmmmm.....:)
XOXO

thoughts of the night

• i love my tivo
  
• i watch general hospital every single night when the kids go to bed
  
• i change ring tones on my phone at least once a day
  
• i'm a screaming liberal
  
• i'm naughty underneath it all
  
• i love slim jims
  
• blackstone merlot is my favorite
  
• of course desperate housewives tivo'd watched monday morning with a cup of coffee
  
• i haven't done any of my christmas shopping
  
• none of my christmas cards are out
  
• !!!!!!!!!!
  
• i'm craving a rubio's fish taco
  
• i miss san diego
  
• i miss my house
  
• i miss my sl
  
• i miss my place in the world
  

Giving..

I love to give. Looking outward is a great way to forget your worries. So, here's to looking outward and remembing others. Even if the heart is off kilter, and you're not sure what you're doing...just remember your loved ones and take care of them this season. Give yourself some kindness and love, too....tea, a good book, a funny movie or a nice body massage. Love is the word...and the giving princess is at work..:)
XOXO
C

The music...

Out of the blue Norah came on. At first, I thought I'd hurl. I listened. I sucked it up. Wooohoo....I made it baby! I may be a recovering Superwoman, but I have the power.
So there! I did it! I'm healing and it feels oooooh so good. Baby steps. I can do it! Ladies, we can do it!
XOXO,
C

'Tis the season....

What a year. My beautiful children are so excited about Christmas. We're busy getting the teacher's gifts ready for the parties this week and next. I remember back to when I was their ages. I loved Christmas. I remember the smells of the tree, the anticipation of Santa, and the wonderment of it all. I love helping that come to life for the kids.

xoxo
C

The laughter of kids...lol...

I'm sitting here trying to write and figuring out my thoughts. I make it sound as if I'm having such as cathartic experience. It seems, for a moment, a semi-serious moment. Then from the stairs behind me comes the steps of little feet and the flash light. I hear them. I smile. The ballon come sailing in. "Oooooh, Mommy farted," screamed the kids. THat's right. Just when I'm taking myself too seriously comes a silly blue balloon from the corner, my three cute little ones ready for bed and my son yelling, "Oooooh, you farted."

GOT TO LOVE THEM! I soooo do! Boys and the word Fart..lol! That's a whole other discussion!

I'll smile until I feel it!

Damsel no more!

This picture isn't to advertise me! It's just to say..here I am! I'm smiling until I feel it! Ugh!!!!!!!! I'll start to feel it soon enough!

And I'm finally feeling it!!!!! Wooohoooo!

Happy Monday!

What a wonderful Monday! There isn't even a hint of sarcasm in that. The damsel is gone and I'm feeling pretty damn good today. I wore my little fingers out this weekend with all my writing this weekend!!! Woohoo. I'm soooo back and you know life is great. Writing is soooo cathartic. I'm even working the business! So, as I type I'm sipping some yummy coffee listening to my music and planning my day. Amazon is calling my name. Orders are waiting..lol....!
XOXO C

Flowing fingers today...

I'm not sure if it's the coffee, the fingers or the fast me today. I'm thinking it's a little high mixed in with some flowing fingers. My fingers have ideas I didnt' even know were there! I'm focused, though, and the writing is great. Yesterday, I could have used a dose of this pep. We know how it flows, though. :)

Sipping Coffee and Staying Warm..

It's a rainy chilly morning. The kiddies are all off to school and I'm figuring out the holidays. Kindess and generosity is the order of the day.

Warm and Cozy...

Today I'm feeling warm and cozy. It's a good day. I started thinking too much and then turned the tunes up and the mood changed. Life is good and so am I .

Now, I just have to figure out dinner.
xoxo
C

love..

Working on my writing...Way better to have loved and be left with a pain so unbearable you think that your heart is burn from the pain...than to have just lived without that love.
PS...sugar is my enemy..lol

Hmmm a thought...

I'm taking all this icky energy and grief I heaped on myself and use the energy for good stuff. I pulled out all the Christmas decorations. (a good weekend behind) I have the list of stuff organized for purchasing this week. Here's a great thought...If I can deal with the junk..I can handle the purging of sugar! Woohooo! I'm a woman on a mission. I can do it! I gave up Diet Coke, Sugar is next. XOXO C

Maybe some "SPIRIT HANDS"..?!

Well, my coffee is tasting yummy this morning. I'm sitting here waiting for the Z to kick in, because lord knows I need it. I don't think I've slept in days. Let me clarify. I've slept...but not well. I'm aching inside. I'm hanging in, though, and looking forward to Christmas. I'm trying to figure out how to work through this and the baby steps suck. Besides the smiling, maybe I just need a good dose of "Spirit Hands"!!!!! Ok, I cracked myself up. I really to do miss the laughing.
XOXO C

Saturday to relax...

It's nice to know that relaxing Saturday's are still possible. Thank you friend for our chat this morning. It helped this morning after not sleeping last night. I hope tomorrow is another restful morning. The memories rush when I hold my coffee cup on some mornings but you helped this morning. XOXO C

My fingers are flowing...

The outline popped into my head at about 5AM this morning. I have the index cards on the table and I'm excited about it! I stopped for a while and got my girly girls off to school and then my cutie boy is sick. After a quick trip to the dr it turns out it's an ear infection. So a few numbing drops and anti B later...and he's resting.

I can't wait to get back to the cards! Index cards are soooo less manic than sticky notes. DR C would be so proud! LOL! Of course the cards are pink, though. There must be a sense of style in the writing, because it perks me up. XOXO C

All I can say...

Today, on this chilly day, all I can say is that I'm trying. That's all I can do today. I can't quite dive into a self help book, but I'm not feeling numb today. That's a good thing. :)

And life goes on....
xoxo..C

It's Chilly....

Well I'm chilly! It's one of those cold ones today. I'm getting ready to bring the boy to school and then I have a day to myself! Woohoo! I'm even feeling pretty good today. Pretty good is better than miserable. My coffee isn't even tasting like cinnamon. I'm on a role. Maybe, I'll have better thoughts after I drop him off. I may even be able to type with punctuation on of these days..LOL! That is, if you're reading this and wonder why it's just a throwing up of words. It's the throwing up of my thoughts. The fingers are in charge...not my brain. Peace . XOXO C

Turn the music up!

Ok so this morning I just turned it up and let it go! Wow! How about that ..lol! I'm feeling better. I"m going to write my book. I'm going to figure out what I want. No more drama! No more waiting! I'm 34 and I'm not waisting another day! If my mom doesn't want to be here...I can't help that. I can only pray. When the missing happens and the ache and loser feeling comes over me I need to focus on something else...someone else's pain.

I'm going to turn the music up and smile until I feel it. Ugh...:)! Just remember hunny..he's just not that into you.

My Promise!

I ,Christie Eckelman Little, will no longer take anymore BULLSHIT! I will no longer be a DAMSEL! I will smile until I feel it when the time is needed....and I know life is good! So there! If nothing else, I owe that to me. I promise that to me. :)

Today is pretty good...thank god..
xoxo C

Ugh..

The voice I heard tonight wasn't who I knew. It was cold and angry. Sad and synical. Where's my friend, my love, my hunny? Was it all a dream? I guess it was. After almost 4 years I thought I deserved more. Then I heard her. I heard her voice crack. She had loved for 23. Ugh. Her pain is palpable. I feel it even now. I want to reach out and hug her. My selfishness has to be set aside, so she can move on.

That damn coffee....The tears just flow...I wish this weren't so hard.

I just miss my baby...I love my sl....I want it all back.